excite me,

i am walking on the wrong track, but it is too late.

what should i do when there's already so many things on the plate.

i know im always running away.

sorry, but i really don't share what you see, think and feel.

tired.

is there a need to prove to anyone anything?

i'm just being me. i'm that imperfect.

we all think we live in a world. but truth is, we all live in a world of our own.

we are all the same yet different. we understand the differences but it always seems so hard accept anything other than ourselves.

differences are hard to compromise because human beings are used to being too self-centered to acknowledge other point of views.

we are all too good for ourselves when we can never seem to please the others.

when we think we are already giving it all, they see as its never enough.

we choose to stop, they think it as a kind of defeat.

when we say no, they feel rejected.

being poor and dumb dont make you any less important.

and rich powerful people dont make the world go round.

you cant buy everything. you dont own anything.

and when you feel that you are the better one, anything less is not acceptable.

we dont depend on anyone.

because we have basic values.

i can do it. even people doubt.

at least i know, not now, but one day.

nothing is going to stop me.

just wait.

celebrate.

and they say leaving is hard. haha.

:D

why am i gettin' myself into one shit after another?

picture-perfect building.



the flavour,

who doesn't like indulgence?







love CITTA ' tho it can be quite on the pricey side.













a picture speaks a thousand words.

barbies on the street.

a great view from the cafe's loo.







suckiest rice ever. period.

the dish is as huge as it looks! no kidding!

whos lookin'



some boiling hot big bone steamboat, slurps again!

messed up hair. but blessed :)

been in some paper-making and photo-shooting these days, tiring but fun.

life just has to be excited.

its the color of solitude.









they walked thru history.







when all the things become a shade darker.



some mj moment i held onto.



the food, our joy.



i so heart these very little precious times we have together.



bags of LOVE.



hee.



simple lovely gestures make the best memories.

and i just got back from there,









blew me away blew me away...



simple yet unforgettable.



buffet is best in the morning i guess.





the flavor,



by the sea.



fish roe in the cutlet, ultimate!



good food keeps me going, fat.



:>>>







jing's salad with his crazy spread of cheese. who eats salad like this :/



apparently he does XD



slurps.

back to the normal diet now, it was too crazy. way way crazy. but loads of love :)

and i still love him very much. deeply :)

hes my love, my support, my need. no one loves me more than he does, no one cares about me more he does, no one let me be the way i want to be, more than he does. he doesnt care if he doesnt really understand me sometimes, all he knows is that he just needs to be there for me, thru the ups and downs. he is one of the nicest person i have ever known in my life, and i feel so lucky now that hes not just a normal friend of mine, but a best friend, a boyfriend and a soulmate to me. well he has his faults and habits that i cant stand, and i would get angry and irritated sometimes...but at the end of the day, these mundane things dont matter anymore. no one is perfect. and this person, is the one.



i'm glad that i dont see the greed in you that i see in others, and definitely not one of the manipulative and wicked minds out there, you are just so simple and pure.


thank you my dear, thanks for everything. i love you.

and of cos, happy anniversary to us baby :>

work is work, life is life. life is no work. work is no life.

im feeling his love.

sometimes, you just need to slow down, look around.

interpret things differently.

the beauty...

yourself.

i like it when im happy. even if happiness comes and goes.





between the joy, its living heaven.

my dearest dearest.

loves.




across the golden line, im feeling his love. great love.

and, i want to live for myself. please.

and you had me almost died of heart attack, argentina.

god bless.

vamos.

哈。

promise.



:> :D :)

cutest grandma ever!

like mother, like daughter.

love is definitely in the air!

may the true love lasts forever.

and,

i just wanna say, wanna say to 爸爸，妈妈，阿妈, i love you all, no matter how far we are always apart. this is true.

my schedule has been as packed as it can get. i really had to literally steal bits of time here and there to settle stuff....personal....random.



it was really nice to get out on the street after so long, even if its just a couple of hours.



hair getting longer and out of shape, but seriously im running out of idea to style it.



took a pic with the most good looking guy in the world.




newly weddddddd cute couple :D



！



peace // 睡觉。

is the person with heart and soul.



i'm glad that at this very point of my life, i still have some emotional support to keep me going.

life's not easy, im not complaining, i have no right to, and i'm very aware that i'm already a lucky person.

i just have to take whatever that comes ahead, at least for now, ...till the day that i decide to say, 'i'm done'.

i am completely devastated, filled with tiredness. i don't know what to think anymore. its not about loving or being loved. i wanted everything to be as peaceful as i wished, but it is never the case. what will happen today or tomorrow im really scared to know. and work has been pretty much controlling my life, and im still feeling guilty sometimes, one way or another, like im not contributing enough. and to be honest, i feel most bad for jing, for his girlfriend is never around for him. but im forced to move on and is leaving no room to think about anything especially with this crap going in the family.

smiled like i meant it.



felt like 1970.

:D

the seasoned and preserved walls.

bride to be.

groom to be.







the magical touch of greens.

i could sit here the whole day and wont complain.



:>





beauty in his eyes.



:O

outtakes of joy!




xin tian di, undying flavor of the good old days.

>.<







being obsessed is not a crime.











can i not love coffee?









the flying woman!!!



girls........



the cozy backyard.

its not easy to be always leaving your family, even tho it may have become a usual routine for past twenty years of your life. and its always sad to know that the next time you see them again would be like one or two years later.

sadness. depression. numb. ignorant. anger. sadness. numb. loneliness. i love them but i feel that i don't know them, and when i get to know them then i have to leave again. and the cycle goes on. its like jetlag. constantly adjusting to suit to the different continents of your emotional mind.

you think you are used to it, but actually you are just hiding or chucking it at one corner. it still comes back from time to time.

i had a great time there, i miss the laughters and the very basic and simple happiness we shared. i love seeing the smile on his face, i'm proud to be his daughter. we, are proud being his children.

i love this family, i really do.

and i will try my best to not forget these feelings as the time goes by, with the isolated feeling starts slowly crawling back into me.

gained 4 kgs this year and people are still saying im not fat. some words are not meant to be heard.

time to get controlled.

to work.