theres always a voice in you,
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May. 8th, 2011 | 11:48 pm
telling you you are not good enough.
be it the way you look, the work you do, as a person, in every aspects of life.
as much as i tell myself to be contented and be happy: which i am! i always randomly feel bad about myself.
i'm always looking to improve each and everyday of my life.
although i'm actually a very lazy person sometimes. and i'm an emotional brat.
i like everything thats beautiful to me, i love art, music, design, fashion and food and whatever. these things make me happy.
and most importantly, i need love.
i know theres no perfection. its just a figure of speech.
but theres sure something called 'better' and 'better'.
sometimes i only have the courage to find flaws in myself.
it was a casual conversation with a friend when she talked about many young girls going
under plastic surgeries these days. shes very cynical about them and asked me if i would ever
go under the knife?
i told her,
" i think they are actually very brave. they are willing to endure the pain and consequences.
i for one, cant even take the slightest pain, for gods sake. like the girls, i hate many things about myself and i know that the makeup and styling can only temporarily improve or hide that much. no matter how low the confidence i have in me, i just have no courage at all to go to this extend and
change my look. i respect them for what they have to go through. i look at their perfectly altered faces and i would actually be kinda envious for a moment and then the next minute i would go,
' where did their courage come from?' "
everytime i look in the mirror and i keep telling myself, " if this is slightly bigger and there is slightly smaller it will be perfect. if i alter my face surgically, i dont even have to put on makeup
or style my hair to enhance my features at all ! haha. "
but i'm still never going to do it.
most importantly, i feel that every part of my body is a gift from my parents, i should cherish and thank them for what they have given me and not try to modify and change into something else for good. i'm healthy and i can see, hear and walk...i have all these. what more can you ask for. i think they will be devastated if i even have the thought of doing it.
still, i respect these girls and it's their choices and lives. for me, i would just explore other options without going through a surgery to look better.
what do you think?
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yinagoh
date: May. 8th, 2011 06:22 pm (UTC)
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i would go for surgery IF someone sponsored me. hahaha
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sleepwalks9to5
date: May. 9th, 2011 08:05 am (UTC)
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azioki
date: May. 8th, 2011 08:44 pm (UTC)
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sleepwalks9to5
date: May. 9th, 2011 08:06 am (UTC)
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from: Beautiful Stranger
date: May. 9th, 2011 02:50 am (UTC)
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i also believe that beauty is not about how you look, nor so much about how you act, but about whether you can learn to accept your own body and others'. if you were to undergo plastic surgery, for me, that would mean that you cannot come to terms with your own body and thus you won't really be beautiful.
unless it's surgery for health reasons, e.g. cleft lip, in which case i'd say go for it. but plastic surgery is rather different from that :)
of course, i'd hate to cast judgment on all who've gone for plastic surgery - this is purely my opinion. i do agree that they are brave, and ultimately i'll never be able to fully understand their feelings and thoughts about their own body, so if my friend decided to go for it i'd still support her (as long as it's an informed decision that she's making!)
p.s. i also have that random voice in my head - it's irritating! every time it comes on, i tell it to shut up and i do something i like.
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sleepwalks9to5
date: May. 9th, 2011 08:15 am (UTC)
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A quote to share
from: Beautiful Stranger
date: May. 9th, 2011 06:43 am (UTC)
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Re: A quote to share
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sleepwalks9to5
date: May. 9th, 2011 08:16 am (UTC)
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men are getting really vain these days too.
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shenaylee
date: May. 9th, 2011 03:57 pm (UTC)
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sleepwalks9to5
date: May. 10th, 2011 03:53 am (UTC)
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no i don't use rollers everyday. i like to explore new stuff so some days i would use rollers, some day i will try teasing the hair and etc. i get bored easily hehe.
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Just found you; never letting go
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thereafterish.wordpress.com
date: May. 10th, 2011 02:01 am (UTC)
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Ie., I rather love your style, and your cuisine choices.
xx{ish}.,
Mae Lu @ ~thereafterish. (http://thereafterish.wordpress.com)!
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sleepwalks9to5
date: May. 10th, 2011 03:54 am (UTC)
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vanity is proof that women are gullible
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date: May. 10th, 2011 02:43 am (UTC)
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from: Beautiful Stranger
date: May. 10th, 2011 05:21 pm (UTC)
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i love these lines u've written above cindy :) i love ur style and everything .
may i know where do u edit ur photos ?? big fan ! x
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sleepwalks9to5
date: May. 11th, 2011 02:56 am (UTC)
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i edit them in photoshop, manually with basic tools like color balances, levels and colors. :)
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heartnotch
date: May. 17th, 2011 12:48 am (UTC)
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What I really feel is, human are jealous of people who are better. Because most of them can't afford it to go under the knife, they despise them. Its almost the same theory as people comment that buying a Lambo in Singapore is stupid and it's a waste of money. Sour grapes. I have def nothing against plastic surgery and I think everyone has their own freedom to improve their lives in any way so long it is not morally wrong and is not a crime.
ANYWAY BABE, you look GREAT. So you don't have to consider plastic surgery at all. :) I would love to see your hair tutorial cause your styling skill looks so good! Don't your hair gets fried up after styling almost everyday? Do you use a curling tong and what kinda hair products you use for styling?
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sleepwalks9to5
date: May. 17th, 2011 04:10 am (UTC)
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thanks, i will try to post up a tutorial on my hair styling soon. i dont style my hair everyday, yes it would definitely damage my hair if i do that every single day haha. but unfortunately my ends are already damaged cos i used to bleach my hair some time ago.
i use a curling iron and i will share with you guys what i use for my hair soon!
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